Wondering

Now let just say your wondering who this freak is,what's so special about him.whatever you found about me yot will wish to search for more.but non or less you will wish i shout your name up.I'm a friend and i love it when a nigger or chick greets me with respect an i send out my love.I am just happy today its X-mas eve and wishes to all my blog readers.

. . . . . . . . . .santa better not make your wish come true.peaCe

"Conscious"

Shallowed tears,bleeding heart.
there is one of those times i wonder what it takes to be normal?...
If you have an idea to that all then nothing will come close to you.
I always promise myself i will hate no man,but because of the assumtions
i stand back and listen very carefully,not to utter a word for they will mistaken it fo an insult.
I'm bleeding inside but say no word.
Only near future will tell i was wrong.
Yes or no dont have the will to select out the wrong or right.
I still say no word for i am nothing,but one thing i acknowledge,
If you do fear no man,then fear the devil inside then...quite i am!

What i saw?...

When first i saw her she was like a shinning star,i could wish that she could fly but not far away,just close by.
when first i saw her i was unable to breath only her kiss will allow me to say a word...
when first i saw her the sky blazing wish shine,i could swear she was an angel.
When first i saw her i held my mums leg an asked if saints walked the face of earth.
When first i saw her that sweet voice whispered once more"hi..."
Just a tiny sound i realised such beauty.
Just a glints of it i saw clear,my eyes were cleansed.
Just once more i begged to hear it again,or the sight of it all.
but i was left with no answer,therefore i wonder...
Randonly they kept driving my mind,i questioned myself.
Gorgeous??...beautiful??...
worthy??...ment to be??...
will i ever remember?...
I hated to wait,anxiously i searched maybe surprisingly i will get to witness once more,my fear became that.
Patiency looking up to see a light or a sign.
Gone i will never get that chance to meet her again,
i point amongst the stars and wish for one more moment of beauty.

. . . . . .unturned by wonder.

Not yet but close to a "sonnet"

He had it with him,slow perch incore by the silence crowd announced.
whoote the sound of fight,fought to repend no more scattered.
Not pain just a lesson portials awaken/arise like day light is no longer...
Loud noise from the bushes that beast hasnt laid its head down,mouning such survival.
Waiting...time runs like a fly buzzes for freedom that an escape,
Darkness dawn,still rise bittererd like a wild bull in a struggle.
Not many but few,how unfair yet patiency rages like haunted flames.But that leaves me with no choice i wait again.

Percussions in Life

Never understood the moments that make it difficult to sort out our differences but then i think to myself how percussive:

Discrimination/Love,Hate/Honesty,Fear/Respect,Betrayal/Honour,Disgust/Admired,CouRage/Pain,Lies/Truth,Death/Life,Good/Evil,Perch/Floor,Nightmare/Fairytale,Black/White,Day/Night,Positive/Negative,Allowed/Forbidden,Beautiful/Ugly,Arguments/Laughs,Tears/Smiles,Friends/Enemy,Colours/Shadows,Light/Darkness,Gains/Losses,Blessings/Crosses,Heart/Mind,Glory/failure,happiness/sadness,Bad/Greatness,Victory/Defeat,Health/Wealth.Birth/Death...faith and destiny.Although one can only survive a day with five or less from these moments and emotions we still find a way to calm down and delte with our weakness for tomorrow brings more

Game over

I tried to fail but this game is easy to play,why wait if nothing will come along.
Tell me something is it that i'm to lazy to give up,but then i'll win by default then your done trying to pursuit me to let you in on it...seriously i'm done

See these eyes wide about to pop up just before you made an entrace,you surprised us with your vivicious signature smile.Pause/silence now i tell you it isnt that one doesnt understand,its just that one doesnt want to understand so please present a new game i'm keen to explore.If not lets play once again if i win...i never want to witness the disgust from your face,so walk away and accept defeat atleast not pain.

Journey

God i lift my eyes towards the mountains and ask to walk a distance without fear and hate.I cry aloud to you for them to listen and hear me. . .make and keep your vows to him,let all who are around him bring tribute.

We shall move mountains and walk on rivers for you are amazing and if we stay strong to our faith and believe.God is looking down on us an hears our praisers be glad he gave you life.

Not In My Rule Bonk

All things are black and white whichever way you feel its right,
thats when it comes back to me now and i told you to wait until its fast paved out of the way and thats my say right!...
Don't get it all twisted,
this isnt a song or a lyrical rap...aint
Oh thats my queue
when i set it straight,
not to take over but leave a mark
then my story is right where it has to sound.
Thats when you listen quite carefully...right!!!

but let me tell you something you should never forget,
this post wasnt on my rule book or my mind, but just a statement to show i have had the same statement in life

Your boy da_walk is out
next time he'll hit you with a punch line you'll bleed tears and run.peaCe out!!.

My place of peace

I do not hate,i fear nothing,
yet i beg to be forgiven by the merciful one.
The creator of all things,when i am sad i hang around places that tell me to silence and pray.
Shadows or light he hears my cry and blesses me with guidens.Don't think all stupid hey...i aint.
This place holds alot of memories of when we were young and innocent...now i live to remember the past.

Nature OR Holy,but only he knows

If you believe then you know exactly what to expect,but say no more for the answer is staring us in the face.Start today to realise you need him more than anything.Lord almighty please set them free and stay strong to your faith.

My Hometown's P.S

If you find yourself under the roof of that building then your in deep . . .Ish. . .you better make yourself comfortable,hahahaha!

Hell no! not another love post

If love was a subject i would have failed. . .as much as i have been rejected,because i cant figure out if i'm winning or not,some of them play hard to get.
Then the are those easy targets.

She has me under her spell and it never ends

Just got in and out of a relationship so fast my head spinned,
oh please don't even think about it,she wasn't my type,
i agree. . .
absolutely

just dusted myself three times and i still feel like the floor is calling.
Damn! this chick is too much.
I'm cursed,i aint looking again and why am i thinking so virtuous.
I hate her for possessing my heart.

Yet it beats continuesly that means i'm still inlove,
tempted but wont admite it,
i didn't ask for all this only it made me more cautious.

Maybe it was my fault,who knows. . .
can't believe she tossed me out like a rubbish bag,Mistaken

Could have sworn she's the chick who send me an sms just the other day,
requesting me to subtract her ex-
now. . .
i'm afraid this story never ends. . .

The art of a nightmare Before sun rise

Glints sound of birds interrupted by the squeaks past of cars,so precious it was stolen and replaced with a dusty old spoon.

Emerging,how pityful that innocents hide behind an ignorent face,like a shapeless piece of glass,shame no beginning nor was the end.
What are the expectations,to be crawnd in such tune of heart.

Destroying what has already distructed,not even a terrorist can tell the difference,if only a piece of the sun could be snatched.
The shadowed darkness awaits as if the he deserved such stolen treats,thats before the sun rise. . .

Disintegrated into dust as the wind swifted like a feather dustor emerald wave progresses quicker past,leaving a spark of beauty.The sky blushes like a love struck girl until a pleasent moment that glints like gold,framing the twilight of her face.

No reason to the blazing tumbles,was it a thriller,No! Just a nightmare that kept me away from my gorgeous dream thats because she was in it,pushed over and relapsed on buried silent nights.
Holding back is that instinct that has doubts about wether tomorrow comes.

A dawn of a new day he starts upon the short but dounting just before the sun rise,it was no destination,a light in the deepest darkness arise,once again/alive once more,that was such a horrible dream.

Randomly

I have grown to accept pain in which ever way it stricks,no matter how much we love them,we should learn to let go and move on and no doubt about it "a baby is Gods opinion that life should go on."So rest in peace to those loved ones your memories will live on.

Both Hearts Are Broken,but Never Let Go

Why would i have to buy her a bunch of flowers if i could pitch up at her door step unexpectely and give her a kiss,but then i realise things were no longer the same.
Astounded by my acts,holding her hand close to my heart unable to utter a word.

As sharp tongue and a scandal juicy enough to slander my name and comfort her ego,after all nothing eases a broken heart quite like vengeance.Something this bizarre,i had her wrapped around my arms convincing her,she was one in a million and that was my first mistake.

Our love was false/default we agreed we were foolish enough to look beyond. . .But funny that she shad tears although she doesnt want me no more but forgiveness i beg.
Pity i still feel like holding her hand forever,until i tell her more i am forced to let go.

A players game is to be mysterious,but i felt like i owe you an explaination,painful it is,i feel i have gone too far,she forbid me from hurting her again and i surrender my love and apologise for my shameful acts.Visibly shuddered by our memories. . .

what we had,had burnt to ashes yet i still ask to make amends.Our love was strong and heavy like a igneous rock for i cherish the times we shared.

I Have A Big Question Mark In My Mind

What if?
what if this was it. . .
that all this had placed me in a dreadful state of mind,slowly drained like a blood sucking vampire.

What if this had taken its first tall from that horrible unpredicted concussion,moment when nothing seemed clearly.
Unfolling as unusual no answers for those depressive questions for the are no findings.

How amazing surprisingly without alerting the unpleasents of a lost soul,
have i not targed the perfected point to show case what dreams can unfold into.
These moments have set off a lounch to create the most impossible achievements in one certain line i can not cross yet.

Assured that not many have accomplished nor eliminated the what mankind has to conclude at the end nor have they failed to reach it but the question still stands in my mind. . .

Patiency has left us stuck with in the past,curiously we wait as it runs through the family,but wat if this was it. . .Atleast tell me the answer to my questions.Wondering what tomorrows question will be,i wait.

Conquer

Why have they made fun of you,although they dont really know you.Silly people

Tomorrow you will be gone from this world and they will rejoice each year on your birthday.Unbelievable

You have done this much to prove your a friend but they are happy to have you as an enemy. . .Conquer

Times are tough,but it is worth it,challenges have overwhelmed every change that keeps a man walking with his head held high aiming to reach his perch,Master it

Day and night his journey leads him to a certain destination not knowing what to expect.
Even the hardest times might be a destraction,How couragous

Thankfully that day will come when his no longer and memories cherished to keep peace and respect but thats only the begining. . .Thank you

FORGET IT!

Forget about tomorrow and pay attention to this present day.

Politicians promised to make it a better world,visions of ancestors told a tale of fortune. . .

Nothing there but lies and deniel,silly people fooled by money and fame,rich?!,kings and queens of bling you and i have called them.

Snap out of it,see that dirty old man cuddling with a brown bag that smells like fish and chips under a bridge,too bad he doesnt even know how they taste.

Imagen nothing there but shame and empty minds that have been blinded by money and stupidity,how selfish. . .now tell the story to the next generation. . .

Oh excuse me for been ignorent,see any future leaders arise from those never learn from their own mistakes. . .forget it they dont care.

THE CONFLICT BETWEEN US

Slow down this road has an edge ahead at the speed your moving you'll miss the next road sign.
Suppose this was close to the end. . . no more symbols to lead the way.

Its an indiginous moment the truth is crushed down the rocks of a certain mountain washed away by the rivers of many sights to see.
That present time everything got shatterd,clear it was the fields had no colour heavier it became mountains granded down the high way "tell me what more do you want you lied to me?!"he said.

"i could have told you but it would have destroyed you" she said with tears in her eyes,sparkling like a diamond star.A story she told even though nobody listened,look upon the stars and make a wish,that day you were made to believe.Hear me out!

Here is that thought that cross my mind again,these wall tags have been removed like care and respect we kept in our hearts,
painful it was.Shadows have demolished. . .
superior and unique no longer exists like in that movie we once watched.

Sorry that your apologies and tears can not be accepted,but a second chance might be the first step to forgiveness.
Nothing there but rage and descrimination,
let me reach the conclusion-from now on i value to work upon healing the heart for the mind to believe and understand.